I'm a Work in Progress.

Hey. So, I'm sitting here trying to calm down from the crazy little cousin's birthday party. That many sugar high children should NOT be allowed to be in the same place. Anyway, I wanted to talk about the title of my blog. At first I had it "Once upon a Time" and I guess I liked it for a while I was going for the whole I'm telling a story and my life is like a fairytale thing. But life isn't a fairytale so that just doesn't work. I decided that it needed to be changed but I couldn't think of anything else. I tried and tried, and eventually I just gave up and decided that until I think of a good title I would leave it as "Work in Progress". I left it as that for a while and kept trying to think of a good title, but the more I saw "Work in Progress" the more I liked it. I mean, I am a work in progress. I'm not perfect and I'm not done. I am always changing and trying to become a better person, and that is the point of this blog. To explain my life and the challenges and how I improve myself because of them. So the title fits perfectly. I am a work in progress.

On a lighter note, I saw Harry Potter 7 last night and it was AMAZING (: I fell in love with all the characters all over again and I can not wait until part 2 comes out. I was just phenomenal. Naturaly after seeing the actual Harrp Potter movie I had to go on Youtube and watch the musical. It is hillarious. I would recomend it to anyone who loves corny jokes and Harry Potter. It is called A Very Potter Musical and once you've watched that one you HAVE to see A Very Potter Sequel. Both are totally awesome. (you will get that when you watch them). They are both pretty long, like the length of a full length movie, but they are absouletely worth it. (:

Me, Myself, and I

30 random facts about ME

 uno. I want to be a dinosaur when I grow up.

2. My bestest friend's name is Taylor

tre. My favorite colors are pink and lime green.

τέσσερα. I want to speak French, Spanish, and Portugese.

five. It has always been my dream to go to Yale.

sechs. I am a grammar freak. I will always correct someone using impropper grammar.

zeven. I am obsessed with weird socks, I am currently wearing pink ones with stars all over them.

8. I am addicted to facebook.

novem. I am one of the strangest people you will ever meet.

dix. I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.

once. I absolutely love Harry Potter.

twaalf. I have an invisible friend named Bob, he lives and works in Utah but comes to visit me on the weekends.

thirteen. I am excited to be pregnant someday, I think it will be really cool.

quattordici. I love all animals.

fünfzehn. I always have some sort of accesory on when I leave the house.

dieciséis. I never go ANYWHERE without my phone.

septendecim. Reading is my favorite.

18. I am a neat freak when it comes to school, but at home I'm a complete mess.

dezenove. I really like photography and I'm hoping for a new camera soon.

vingt. I am really smart, but I have no common sence.

venti uno. I love music and singing.

είκοσι δύo. Sports aren't really my thing, I get field hockey, that's it.

twenty three. I can not dance to save my life, but I do it anyway.

zwanzig vier. I wear a watch everyday but I can't tell time.

двадцать пять. I play the flute and love it.

viginti sex. I took Latin for 4 years and hated every second of it.

ventisette. My favorite actor is Tom Hanks, actress Drew Barrymore.

28. Bones is my favorite show.

negenentwintig. I am Irish, French, and a little bit Brittish and Finish.

trenta. I usually prefer having boys as friends over girls.

There you go, thirty random facts about myself. And yes, I did write every number in a different language because I am just THAT cool (:

Hugs and kisses <3

College????

Cried myself to sleep last night...that happens way too often then it should. I shouldn't be this messed up. I wish I wasn't afraid of being alone, and I wish I didn't mess up every good thing in my life. I just do, all the time. I hate it. I end up hurting myself than anyone else hurts me...or maybe I just keep blaming myself for what other people do. I don't know. I swear, I'm only just about 16, but I could totally write Messing up your life: For Dummies and it absolutely sucks.

Well...I always find just forgetting and moving on is the best for this sort of situation. That's all I can do, so new topic. For a very long time I've wanted to be an English teacher/novelist. I thought this was relevant to this blog seeing as I am writing this blog to get better at writing and prepare myself for my future career. I love writing and I love reading. I figured since I don't have the attention span to finish an actual story right now I could write a blog. It's just like a bunch of little mini stories that can prepare me for future writing. I am also taking an IB (International baccalaureate) English class right now, I have a solid A. I beast at English and I love it so much. I'm looking into colleges that have strong English programs, but I've found that practicially EVERY college has an English program which is making narrowing down my search difficult. Seeing as I am Mormon I thought it would be best to think more about BYU BYUI and SVU. Of those I really want to go to SVU but it's the smallest and most difficult to get into. It's also the most expensive, still its not very expensive but its more than the about $6,000 it costs to go to BYU a semester. Since I'm just going to be a teacher and I know my sallary wont be an insane amount I don't really think I should try for really expensive colleges that I will spend the rest of my life trying to pay off. That just isn't necissary. I will seriously consider MA state schools if I get the John and Abigail Addams scholarship, which is a possibility. If I get that scholarship I have a full ride to any state school of my choice, so that would be a very good option for me. I could have the same college experience not too far away from home and then go to a better school for my masters.

Thoughts? Opinions?

Music=Life.

Yes, I know it was almost a year ago when I last posted anything...but hey, no one reads this anyway so who cares? Anyway, life is intense...like all the time. So much can go on in such a short amount of time as a year. I mean in five years this year wont mean anything, but it was the year that has affected me the most. I've realized that I have been spoiled with a nice safe and semi-happy life. I had nothing particularly bad to deal with until this year. Now, its like everything is falling apart. I've also learned that no matter how bad things get they will get better, so don't give up. ever. Someone loves you...even if you don't love yourself.

I've been really into music lately, I typically don't do anything without music in the background. I take the lyrics to heart and when I can't express my feelings with words I find a song that can and I sing. Singing is my favorite, I live for it. I do it so much it often annoys people, but I don't care (:
One if my most absolute favorite songs right now is......Revenge is Sweeter by The Veronicas. I really just love it, but in a week that will change and I will be in love with another song. I also really love Lesley Roy, Misfit is one of my favorites <3.

Now I'm going to blog more often...I promise. Bye for now (:

Life Happens

My life is one crazy roller coaster. One day I have nothing to do and I'm taking to cleaning to keep myself occupied, and another I barely have any time to sleep. The past few weeks have been quite busy.


School, like always, is hard and stressful. Especially in the honors classes that I am in. There's always a lot of work to do when I get home from school and I also have band and church that keep me very busy. I feel like I'm always doing work or practicing my flute or at church or doing some other crazy thing I have no time for a social life, so when I actually have some free time I have nothing to do and no friends to hang out with. It doesn't help that all of my friends live pretty far away and there's no easy way for me to hang out with them without planning it all out far ahead of time. But I manage. With me getting mono a month ago, I was mega busy with make up work and exhausted because mono does take a lot out of you. I was out of school for almost two weeks and my grades really suffered. Not fun.

I haven't been able to see my brother and his family very often since they moved to Raynham. I really miss them, especially my nephew, Aiden. He's going to be three soon and he is completely adorable. See for yourself. Sooooo cute. I love that little kid. He's growing up so fast...I cant believe that it's really been almost three year since my little buddy was born. He's starting to tell me stories now. Of course, with him being a boy, a lot of the stories are about the brokten toys and vroom (what he calls Lightening McQueen from Cars) but they are the best stories ever.

Anyway, life happens. There's nothing you can do about it. It just goes. You can beg it to stop, or go faster, but it wont. Time has its own pace and that pace never changes. No matter how much you want it to. I hope everyone will take full advantage of every moment you have.

Rain, Easter, and ME?

So, it's been raining for days. Crazy amounts of rain, I don't think I know one person that lives near me that doesnt have a flooded basement. It's just gross. My street was actually a river yesterday. Fortunately, today it finially stopped and it's going to get really nice for the next few days.

Next topic, Easter. It's only a couple of days away...that means tons of candy, hanging out with family, for us cool LDS people, general conference, and remembering why we celebrate Easter in the first place. It seems that many people get caught up in making a nice dinner and keeping the kids happy and full of candy that they forget why we celebrate it at all. The first resurection isn't something that should just get forgotten about. I would encourage everyone to try to take some time out of this day of festivities and just think about the point of Easter even if it's only for a few minutes.

In English class today we started talking about solipisim (for anyone who doesn't know it is the theory that only one's self exists, or can be proved to exist). It can be a really creepy concept. My teacher was trying to explain exactially what it was and he was telling anyone who asked, "I don't exist, no one exists but you. Everything else is just a figment of your imagination made up by your subconcious." It is really strange to think that you are the only person in the world and everyone else is just made up by your subconsious. I personally believe that the whole concept is just lack of faith. If you believe in this you have no faith in even what you can see. Faith is legit. believeing in something that you cant see but you know is true, if you cant even believe in what you can see then a person has no faith in anything. But it is interesting to think about.

Overall, life is good. Smile and be happy, just because I said so. Laughing is healthy, so get your daily dose of laughter in every day. Live your life, and love everyone, even your enemies. =)

Hello.

Hello all. I decided to take the leap and start blogging again. I love to write so I thought this would be the best place to do so. Life is crazy as always..with school, friends, church, family, ect.. life gets pretty hectic. I seem to manage it well though, and still have time for things like this. Right now I should be doing...well, anything but this, but I dont want to get out of bed yet. So here I am writing about nothing to nonexistant wonderful who would be reading this if they even knew about it...which they dont. So I'm basicially talking to myself. Does that make me crazy? Probably, but everyone has a little crazy in them, so it's okay. I'm very sick of the cold...I want the summer to come a lot faster than it is currently. I want 70 degree weather all year round, unfortunately I live in New England. Therefore, we get a range of -20 to 100 degrees depending on the season. Of course those are extremes, but I have seen both of those temperatures through out all of my years living here, and everything in between. It is currently early spring, last week we had 70 degree weather, yesterday we had 30. I really wish someone could explain how that works. Anyway, hopefully eventually someone cool will take an interest in this blog and begin to read about my crazy and sometimes boring life.. =D