GAHHH

BLAH...enough of my random thoughts and opinions on stuff...this is an update on me. You are now going to learn about my life, whether you want to or not. Get over it. Though, if you're actually reading this you probably want to know...anyway...

I AM OFFICIALLY ALL APPLIED TO COLLEGE!!!!

It feels amazing to be able to say that. I was stressing so much about my applications I was having trouble sleeping and my stomach was constantly upset.I was completely freaking out. In fact, until about the week after Thanksgiving I hadn't even written one of my essays. But I buckled down and finally finished them all. It's such a relief. Phew.

Though, now I have to wait to hear back from these colleges that I've applied to, which is nerve-wracking in it of itself. I'm usually a pretty impatient person anyway, but waiting to hear about the outcome of my future I've become a very, very impatient person. I feel like the person waiting in line, tapping their foot rudely for the person in front of them to hurry up and finish, THAT impatient. That is pretty gosh darn impatient..how many times did I say impatient in this paragraph?

Also, I just turned 17. It doesn't feel much different, I'm still the youngest in my entire grade basically. But it's nice to finally be able to tell people that I'm a 17 year-old senior, instead of a 16 year-old one.

And to top everything off, I have completely finished Christmas shopping. That is something that is VERY stressful for me. I mean, I have a 30 year-old brother I never see, who doesn't talk, and doesn't have any real hobbies. I never have any idea what to get that child. I did it though. I am done. It is wonderful. I say wonderful way too much, but it's a very nice word. I enjoy it.

So, Merry Christmas everyone since, I'm pretty sure, seeing my track record that I won't post again before Christmas. <3

This is one of my favorite Christmas songs, enjoy!

I just realized...

nothing lasts forever.

I was just thinking about my bestfriend Taylor and how much fun it was having her live next to me, but then she moved. That thought made me keep thinking about all the other things that just don't last. Like for me, I'm now a senior in high school..even that eventually ends. Then I'll go to college, but that'll end. I'm no longer a little kid any more. Innocence ends and you're friendships with childhood friends end. Things change...nothing ever will stay the same no matter how much you want it to. We need to move with life and keep changing with it..no matter how scary that might be. We all need to make leaps of faith and hope you land safely. We all need to be scared sometimes, we need to not know what's going to happen next to be unsure if your choice was right. We need to make mistakes, but more importantly we need to learn from them. We need to be strong when times are rough, but there's always room for weakness too. We need to cry when we can't be strong anymore. We need people there for us when we fall apart. We need people to love who love us.

Though, through time, all of these things will change. Different things will be hard. We'll depend on different people. We'll love different people. Things will end, new things will begin. Those simple truths still stand. We need to understand that now..so we can be ready when things go wrong.

Just some thoughts...

I'm Back (:

Sigh, I know I haven't blogged in forever...but I have to be in a blogging type mood and well, I haven't been. I am now though...so hey, how are you all? Good? I hope so. Anyway, enough of the small talk...I feel like I should finish what i started with the advice from somewhere...so here it goes,

#3 "Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have, or sleep all you want."
I guess I will take this in sections, so first, don't believe all you hear. So true. I'm in high school and that's just about the biggest mistake a person can make there. There are so many crazy rumors spread about people it's best to just go to the source if you want the real information because I seriously doubt that Caroline's broken leg was actually a decoy to get her out of taking that math test everyone was dreading. Why would someone do that? Or more like, why would you believe that? Anyway...
Don't spend all you have. An easy lesson of staying out of debt and saving up money for the important things can be learned here. While I may be only a teenager and I've never had to worry about saving money for anything really important I do know that nothing in this world is free. If you want something you have to work for it. Spending frivolously when you have a credit card bill due is generally a bad idea. You shouldn't waste your money for as many a parent has said "Money does not grow on trees." Though it is partially made of paper...
Finally, Don't sleep all you want. I'm going to get all Mormon on you here and quote D&C 88:124 "Cease to be idle; cease to be unclean; cease to find fault one with another; cease to sleep longer than is needful; retire to thy bed early, that ye may not be weary; arise early, that your bodies and your minds may be invigorated." Now what better source of advice than from God himself? Plus when you sleep all day you don't have time to do much else and there are things in this world to be done...mind you this is coming from a teenager who went to bed at 2am and woke up at 10:30am...Wait, quick side story!! This morning I woke up to the sound of VERY loud construction workers doing road work outside my house. I was thoroughly upset so I decided to get back at them. I proceeded to blast the entire Taylor Swift CD with all of the windows open in my house. I sure hope they all have Mine stuck in their head for the rest of the day. That is what they get for waking me up. Haha.

I quickly want to say that you probably shouldn't take anything I say here seriously for I know nothing and am just giving my opinion on the matter. Nevertheless, I am finished, hope you all have wonderful days not believing gossip, saving your money, and going to bed early!! Bye (:

Advice From Somewhere II

Alrighty, time for the next piece of advice from https://www.msu.edu/~jerrymc/humor/advice.html.

Numero dos (I have no idea if that is correct Spanish, nor do I care. It's still fun to say.):

Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

I would find this piece of advice particularly useful, for talking is in fact my favorite thing ever. All I ever do is talk, you could ask anyone who knows me. So finding, in my case, a man who loves to talk as well as listen to me is a huge plus. Though for someone who talks as much as me I wouldn't think you would want to find someone who loves to talk just as much, that could get obnoxious as you both may end up trying to talk over each other and no real point would get across. But, the advice says "conversational skills" meaning someone who will be responsive and be easy to talk to as well as will always listen to what you have to say. That, I believe is very important to a relationship of any kind. It is always said that the key to a good relationship is communication, and this emphasizes that point.

Communication is not the only thing that is meant by "conversational skills" though. You don't want to grow old, married to someone who is boring. That is a major DRAG. Find someone you can have fun with, joke with, just generally get along with pretty well. In that same respect you would want someone you can take to a party who isn't super shy and will be able to interact with others fairly well without any major problems. All of these things are pretty important when looking for the right person.

I will say that I know these things may not be important to others, but I'm just stating my opinion, feel free to disagree.

Advice From Somewhere

I know it's been forever since I last blogged...school gets crazy this time of year.

I found this website https://www.msu.edu/~jerrymc/humor/advice.html while surfing the web and I decided to blog about the importance about each of the pieces of advice given in this page. It seemed like it would be fun and interesting.

So, number one: Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

This is nice to try if you never have before. You begin to see how the little actions you choose to do for others when they don't expect it makes them happy as well as yourself. All you need to do is hold a door for someone, clean something for someone, just give a little extra than you may normally. All of the little things you do add up and help you and others become happier as people. This is essentially just being charitable.

And as the advice says do it cheerfully. No one is helped if you volunteer at a soup kitchen and you're rude to everyone and just don't want to be there. You will probably just end up upsetting others and being miserable yourself. And what fun is that? Doing service and being charitable can be turned into lots of fun if you do it with a lot of friends or just do it with a smile on your face.

This can be turned around in another way also to say don't be too cheerful, either. And I don't mean don't be happy that you're helping others, but don't be too proud of it. The key to being charitable is helping others quietly and getting the justification in yourself knowing others are happy without the acknowledgement that you were the one to do it. When you make sure everyone knows you helped then you are getting benefit out of it as well and it has stopped being for others, but more for yourself.

I don't want to end up sounding preachy because that's not what I'm trying to do. I'm not sitting here telling you that you need to do service and help people. I am merely stating my opinion on the matter, and I feel that the world would be a much better place if people were less selfish.

Anyway, I will hope to be more regular with the blogs..school is winding down so I should have A LOT more time. YAY SUMMER (:

PS. This song has become my new jam (:

It's Magical

I always wish on 11:11. I don't know why I do...it just makes me happy. It's like wishing on your birthday candles...it may never come true, but who cares there's that little bit of hope that it might. It keeps you thinking maybe there is a little bit of magic in this world after all. I like to believe in magic and miracles...just the little things that may be completely illogical, but who cares.

I was talking to a friend the other day about magic. He asked me what I think magic is. And personally I think it is any wonderful thing that you want it to be. Magic may be generally thought as floating objects, witches, wizards, wands, ect. and we all know that we don't see that kind of magic in this world. But there's the little things that are magical, like love, beauty, kindness, hugs, tears, laughter, friends...I think every single one of those things are magical. The biggest one being love. Think about it, the way two people can just fall in love and want to be with them forever..that's pure magic. To see the love between best friends, how they may have just been classmates in school and next thing you know they are best friends for life, magical. And I think the best of all is the love of a mother or father for their child, that is absolutely beautiful.

Really, I think all kinds of magic in this world can relate back to love, that pure connection between two individuals. If there was no love there would be no magic...and in the end there would be no reason for life and no happiness at all.

That idea is a very important theme throughout all of the Harry Potter books. You can see how Harry's ability to love gives him the upper hand and the power necessary to defeat the greatest dark wizard of all time. Yet another reason why Harry Potter is way better than the Twilight that doesn't have any wonderful lessons like this one at all. Hehehe, yes, that was necessary. (:

Luck Favors the Prepared

"I don't know dahhling, luck favors the prepared." -Edna Mode

As I was reading a friends blog she quoted this line from The Incredibles and it got me thinking. I spent a while trying to figure out exactly what it means, this quick little line that is so easily overlooked in the movie. I went back to the movie, googled it, and now I think I've finally figured it out.

Luck favors the prepared. You get what you want when you are ready for it. You get "lucky" when you are prepared for that which is given to you that would therefore make you feel "lucky".

But then that leads me to think, what is luck? Dictionary.com says, that it is the force that seems to operate for good or ill in a person's life, as in shaping circumstances, events, or opportunities. Wikipedia says, it is good or bad fortune in life caused by accident or chance, and attributed by some to reasons of faith or superstition, which happens beyond a person's control.

Amanda says, luck is anything you believe it to be. One person's good luck can be another person's bad luck, it all depends on point of view and perspective. (Yes, I do feel that point of view and perspective are different. Point of view is where you come from when you look at something it cannot be changed, whereas perspective is the way in which you choose to interpret it which can be changed.) If someone is living a hard life they have no home and no where to go, and it begins to rain, that would be their bad luck. To someone who just didn't feel like going out to water the garden, the rain would be good luck. Though if either of them had a different perspective the luck could be different. If the homeless person happened to enjoy rain then that may have made his day and likewise if the person with the garden was looking forward to going out in the sun then the day would have been ruined.

I say choose to have a good perspective all the time. If it's raining, be thankful it's not a drought. Make all luck good luck to you and you will always be happy. Choose to see the good in anything. And if luck favors the prepared, get ready. The best day of your life could be tomorrow.

The Sharp Knife of a Short Life

If I die young, bury me in satin

Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town says he'll, love my forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time


So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls


That song is definitely one of my favorites right now. Whenever I hear this song I think of The Lovely Bones and how Susie Salmon commented on everything when she was dead and how she wanted everyone to be able to get over her death. In this song when it says "Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother, she'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors" it's like she doesn't want her mother to worry about her. I also pay special attention to when the song says "a penny for your thoughts? Oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar, they're worth so much more after I'm a gonner." That's actually really true, like an artist never really gets recognized until after he/she is dead and authors are the same. No body pays attention to you when your alive, but when you die everyone will tell your family how much you meant to them. Personally I think people should tell the person who died what they mean before they actually die, that just makes a lot more sense to me. And finally the part of the song that says "Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket save them for a time when your really gonna need them" It's like saying don't cry over me, I'm fine..wait until you really need a good cry. I just really really love this song, it makes me think of all the young people who die of disease, accidents, suicide, whatever and it helps me to appreciate life how it is now and to realize that I'm luck to have what I do. Everyone else should remember that too.

Never. Grow. Up.

Okay, like every other teenage girl I am in love with Taylor Swift. But every time this song gets me...

Your little hand's wrapped around my finger
and It's so quiet in the world tonight
your little eyelids flutter 'cause your dreaming
so I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light
to you everything's funny
you got nothing to regret
I'd give all I have honey
if you could stay like that

Oh darling don't you ever grow up
don't you ever grow up
just stay this little
oh darling don't you ever grow up
don't you ever grow up
it could stay this simple

I wont let nobody hurt you
wont let no one break your heart
and no one will desert you
just try to never grow up
never grow up.

It goes on, but that's the part that usually gets me. I wish I never grew up. I wish that I could still be 5 and happy...but I'm not. I have to get older and grow up and take responsibility and get a job and bleh. No one ever told me life would be this hard, no, they probably did I just didn't listen because I was too busy trying to rush growing up. I remember being on the phone with one of my friends Patrick...back when I was 14 or 15, I don't remember. I was so upset because I wasn't 16 yet, and oh how I wanted to be 16. Well, now I am 16...and I wish I was still 14. Funny how people always rush their lives until their older, then they wish they could go back.
Oh well.

The Golden Rule.

So I know I haven't posted in a while, I've been slacking. But I figure, new year, new commitment..maybe. I don't know. School is mucho time consuming and well, to tell you the truth, I don't have much of a life to tell anyone about. But I do have the best friends in the world. They are amazing, and always there when I need them. I guess I am myself a good friend too..wouldn't I have to be to have people as amazing as I have in my life? They say if you want to have a friend, be a friend. I just act towards people how I would want them to act towards me. The golden rule, right? Treat others how you would want to be treated. I grew up knowing that is what you need to do and that's what I do. I can't say it hasn't came back to bite me in the bottom, I've been super nice to people and they come back to be complete jerks to me. But I was the bigger person. I'm not bragging about how amazing I am though, because I know I am nowhere near perfect and I'm not afraid to admit my mistakes. I know I do stupid things..I can be a witch sometimes and yes I have lost friends because of my attitude. But I've learned, and I do my best to love everyone...no matter what they do to me.

And in case anyone is wondering, I do not think much about what I want to write before I write it here. It is my pure, raw oppinion and thoughts you see here...so I'm sorry if it doesn't make much sense...my mind dosen't always flow in any linear way leaving my thought's very random. So, sorry...and bear with me. <3